May 26 - Chapter 26

Chapter 26 is a narration of Paul's early life, conversion  and post-conversion + Festus' opinion on his beliefs and King Agrippa's verdict. 

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"Sayang!"  was the first word that came out of my mouth after reading this chapter because of this verse, Agrippa said to Festus, "This man could have been set free if he had not appealed to Caesar."(v32). It would be interesting to know, let alone, see Paul's reaction to this. 

How many "sayangs"  have we experienced in this life? Probably tons.

Recently, I just went to the Philippines for a holiday. No important reason but just for a holiday. Well, okay I must admit, I have loved ones back there whom I was dying to see but that's beside the point. I ONLY went for a holiday. Now, I am regretting it so much and I can not stress it any furter. I REGRET IT! 

My Auntie Luz is critically ill. It built up gradually due to her hip replacement a few years back (hip replacement only increased her risk to pulmonary embolism, cardiac infarct and heart failure). She had so many problems and was always under so much stress and pressure after this and we did not see the gravity of it until last Tuesday when she was rushed to the hospital. HEART FAILURE AND KIDNEY FAILURE. My sis-in-law wrote me that message and I had to read it twice, thrice, the fourth time to let the words sink in my head. She is critical. It turned out her daughter has stopped giving her her heart medication a long time ago. I WAS SO ANGRY WHEN I FOUND OUT. SO ANGRY AT WHAT MY COUSIN DID. SO FRUSTRATED. I was having my exams when I found out about it and in between my revisions were mounds and mounds of tears. Tears of frustration, tears of sadness, tears of regret. I just want to see her. But I can't. 

I continuously beg God for His healing hands to intervene. She is not ready to go yet. She needs Jesus in her life. And if only I could be with her, I know God can use me. But obviously I can't do it if I am here, exactly 11025.22 kilometres away from Manila! It's a one big sayang in my life that I will never be able to get over with if she becomes worse and worse. I just want to see her, be there for her and most importantly, let her know how important she is to me because she is my auntie and I love her. :(  

I totally lost the focus for this chapter but I needed to get these feelings out of my system. I'm sorry.


Just be reminded that God is a God of Hope! Paul had so much hope in him, so I continue to hope in Him as well! Please pray with me.  

*taken from my Facebook notes